Hey everyone, so...I am in alberta...woohoo! finally! If you dont know already I am living with four of my friends from Summit College. They are a blast to work and live with. I work at a best western as a housekeeper, not so glam. but i dont mind it. The uniform shows off my curves...ha! I am so happy to here, because I have been waiting to come for so long. Well, it has seemed for a long time. Anyways...I'm writing to let you know how i am growing more as a person.
I am being taught how important it is for me to disappear to allow Him (aka God) to appear. I must decrease so that He may increase. I was reading a book about being "Just Like Jesus" and I was thinking about what my hands do. Do they show love? Do my hands show His love? I sat there and envision my hands slowly turning into old man hands, my image of what Gods hands look like. Then i thought of my face turning into an old mans face. But how do i disappear in order to allow this old man (God),who is love, appear. I get rid of my pride and think what he thinks...do what he does...have His heart beat in me. For me to be in Him and He in me. To do this i need to be in constant communication with Him. To talk with Him daily...not once a day...every moment of everyday. Oh great, another discipline...woohoo! With that I am trying to show love to people who dont always get shown love...the rejected. Rejected because they dont measure up to my or anybodies standards. Thats actually not my tough part, quite the opposite. I tend to put a brick wall with people who are very easily accepted. I am working on that as well....
I am looking into going to college out west for something...counseling i think...yeah, i think thats it. I like it and it would give me a change to hang out with funniest people in the world (well, i think)...teenagers! woohoo! They are pretty cool, i know i was at that age...(ummm...not really). Ha! I could use some prayer with that...a little stressful. But the whole constant communucation with God is helping my stress. Anyways, talk to you later. Never stop talking Him...try to do it in your head. Peace out! A town!